The Lives Of The Complicated Boys

Wednesday 13 January 2010

~ 02:13 ~

where did i go wrong?.. i lost a friend (the fray)

i am sitting right here now.. and thinking..

whats up with all this??

on one hand holding on to this is all i have left to keep my life worth living but on the other it hurts so much. i had nothing worth of anything till this.. but it is so fragile. and breaking it at this moment would break me totally.. i need this right now. its all i have left to go on.

i believe now time changes people..

i ain't that strong as 2 years ago.. i really need my oldself back.

<3 jo-

Monday 21 December 2009

~ 02:27 ~

day 21

WOOoo.. i said i would blog evryday.. well i lied. =)

not lyk any of you read anyways.. haha

just a quick summary for all the days in between after the last post till now.. so sorry for not updating.. i havent touch the labtop since the i left for kl.

-after camp i taught su pei the guitar

hopefully she has the guts to strum in front of ppl now.. cos just pressing the strings wont make the guitar produce sound. =p

-aunty carol treated the music team to a lovely dinner.. <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0pniowwy_D3iZ-XlHETw8UI9DIlpsxwcqH4pT85spoIBIdv2q-36b0ohXnM5IrbILtRXRbZWgy2kRORHJFFfgRr4Qk12OCjpMh_iqLrfE0lubnoXhBjh5B84CZUeuo7SPivTN00w_vocW/s1600-h/DSC00025.JPG">

-APYAC 2009!!

it was a kick ass conference.. and met many great people from all over the world. specially the japs since we stayed in the same hotel and use the same bus to the concert hall.

and apparently we tend to try to be lyk them.

im ending the post with this..

i got back home today from kl and i was so pumped cos i went to so many campuses in kl.. and it was so nice. the people there are so easy to mix with.. i dont dream to go to uk or whatever place to take my degree but kl is the place i wanna have my remaining student life in. i love it there. but some dreams are just that.. dreams. a wise man said to me a few hours ago " run for your dreams but make sure that dream will always keep you running". what my dad says is true.. architecture is to long and to costly.. and since i finish my foundation in miri to take an engineering degree in kl ill have to retake my Pre-U agen and its wasting both tym and money..and it'll be unfair to take all the edu savinigs and leave none for my sis. plus there is something very important to me in Miri. that makes a part of me still wanna stay in that god-forsaken ah beng place. =)

<3 jo-

Wednesday 2 December 2009

~ 13:32 ~

day 3

NEVER TRY TO BE SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE NOT

I pulled my muscle trying to act all masculine.. =p and camp is 2moro. =( haha
i learned 1 thing from this.
I.AM.NOT.MACHO.

<3 jo

~ 11:16 ~

hey mr you think you know it all, im going to watch you trip and fall (deu blanc)

day 3

yesterday was greatt.. meet up with so mannyy old beautiful friends.. went to the mall at 6 to have pizza for dinner.. spend 10 bucks not ringgit, brunei in pizza hut just to get a slice of pizza, a cup of coke and some cheese stick thing. =p haha! but its orite, the company is worth more than any money. afterr soo many months we get to hang out pul.. =p

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIN MEI!!!***

i remembered shin mei.. =).. okk.. i remembered.. =p haha

my whole right arm is immobile right now.. =(( and it is only day 3.. =( cant wait for 21st of dec..

<3 jo

Monday 30 November 2009

~ 23:13 ~

get off your high horse ladyy.. i dont need a ride tonight.. (oasis)

day 1

camp is in two days and im stoked for it. been cramming in all the sessions in to this week so its pretty stressful but it still has its fun.. today is the first day i will be doing a daily post until i come back from kl APYAC.. 2moro is gonna be quite a fun day.. =) gonna meet up with alot of old lovely people.. i havent seen you yet dull.. going to be nice to see you 2moro..

hope u arrived safe down under.. <3

LOTS AND LOTS OF <3 jo-

Sunday 22 November 2009

~ 20:43 ~

Hey guys, it has been a while since I last posted. Sorry Jo I haven't post for so long. I am glad that you still update us quite frequently. Well, today was so fun that time just fly by in a blink of an eye. Today was the only time I drove so many times in a day since I first got my license. First, I went to fetch Hsiang up from his place then we drove from Berakas all the way down to JIS for football funday in jerudong. I met a lot of friends there so it was fun. Just for your info(you can just skip through) it was Andrew, Brit, Amal, Yuri, Azmeena, Saiful, Khaliz, amirul, Saiful's brother, Nadirah, Mellisa, Duan, Wazien, Benny, Casey, Ann, Mimi, Khairul, Aaron and his 3 friends, and quite a lot of PTEM people whose name I have already forgotten a long time ago but don't dare to ask cause it's rude if you don't know people's name. So yeah, I got through it by saying 'Hey man/Hey dude/Wassup/' instead of their actual names.

After that~ We left at 12 where brit and casey sent us off and then Andrew, Hsiang and I went back to my place where we, (actually me) got ready to go to Millenium for Yeeling's advance Birthday party. Before that, we dropped off Hsiang at Mc'donalds since he has other plans then we met everyone at Millenium then as I said hi to everyone, I missed out Fah and I just went off to take food then she came over and told me that I was 'very nice' in the most sarcastic way possible. That's Fah Fah for ya, funny and sarcastic that always manages to crack me up. And ya know what? As all of you should know that millenium is a self-service buffet, you're suppose to get your food/desserts yourselves, but fah asked the waiter to get it for her. And that led to our convo about waiters who spit into customers food and I found out that people working in Escapade actually eat peoples left overs. We also took lots of photos that I will post up. Eventually here or on my FB.

Then after that yummy lunch, we bid our goodbyes and a few people followed me to go to Ben's house, Xiu, Yeeling, Andrew & ben(duhh..) We talked for hours there and before we know it, it was already near 5pm and I had to send Yeeling to Katok plus it was time to go back home. Today was the first time ever I visited Katok and believe it or not, Andrew and I actually got lost for a while on the way back to Gadong. Sorry Yee ling, we still got lost eventhough you taught me the way to go back. It was confusing okay?! Zig-Zags and so many junctions. It was just so mind puzzling. As we managed to find our way back, me and Andrew decided that we should go eat somewhere then I thought of tapao-ing something then go back to Ben's place to accompany him eventhough we already said we were going home cause we felt bad that Ben was all alone at home since his family is in KB. He's all ALONE at HOME! Home alone 4 the movie is out today people! Main actor, Benjamin Tang something something. I still don't know Ben's name up till now. Sorry man~

Let's get back on track. We went to tapao chicken rice at thien thien in Gadong where I saw my friend, Fiona. Soon after, (surprisingly their tapao service is very fast) we went back to Ben's house where we enjoyed our yummy, steamed, boneless chicken rice with extra chilli sauce. OH! Milo(Ben's dog) was super horny today that he keeps humping me, don't know why. He's favourite humping toys are Si hui #1, then comes Yeeling #2, Wen xiu #3 and now apparently I'm #4. He almost bit my jelly beans if you know what I mean, stupid dog~ Cute indeed, but still, stupid. Oh and he licked wen xiu's balls! Okay not directly of course, unfortunately the pants were in the way. So yeah, we had our dinner together, the 3 of us then we left around 7 where I sent Andrew back and I took my time on the highway as I head back home myself, just thinking of how much fun today was for me. And then here I am posting this up. Thanks guys for an awe--some day! Don't ever change, it is because of the way you guys are that make you all so dear to me.

P/s; Sorry about the long post. I'm trying to be as detailed as possible. Lucky for you guys, this is not even 1/4 of what I wanted to post up.

-Mo

Friday 20 November 2009

~ 21:33 ~

i am so freakingg worriedd..

if it happens to me ill get over it and try harder..

but i dun wan it to happen to you.. its gonna hurt you and thats gonna hurtt mee so muchh..

but what must be done must be done..if things dont go the way we want, well work it out together..

<3 jo-